Grrr, this is getting frustrating. Although this is all a learning experience, the process of building a car that is this in-depth has proven to be a bit too much for me to take on as a first timer. I remember feeling totally in control last summer when Kate and I were building up Betty. Super easy mods, an alarm, a sub box, basic detailing and a shifter rebuild that forced me to get over my fear of working under a car. All fairly easy and the most adventuresome mod was taking off the valve cover to paint it and replace the seal as I had never seen the guts of an engine before.

I know, laugh it all out. I was a n00b and fully admit it.

And then I got cocky. I thought I could fully handle biting off too many things for the new MK3 project. I was pissing away money just to "do it right" and in doing so I kind of forgot that this was all supposed to be fun. I mean, ok, painting a car is great. Swapping an engine is fun. New interior? Sure! But doing all of them, for the first time, all at once was/is foolhardy and I should have known it but I kept on going and now it's showing it's ugly head.

I'm not complaining at all. This project has been AWESOME to say the least and I have learned a great deal about numerous processes that go into building a car but I should have taken them on in stages and I have no one to blame but myself and my pride. I've missed every single show of the season this year, almost had a damn heart attack because of it and have made this car consume almost every hour of my summer and forgot to just sit back and enjoy it all.

So yeah, that's my vent. I've got a solid week of rebuilding to do once the car is running properly and is fully painted and that is being optimistic. It's two weeks away to Bugout and then three weeks after that to H20. So far, I have a room full of parts, an unpainted car and an engine that has a clogged artery somewhere that has put itself in dry dock until the issue is solved.

I've chosen to step back from Roxy for a bit and just trust that if she's gonna be ready, she'll be ready. If she's not, then fuck it. She is in fully capable hands right now so I have nothing to worry about. It's just a car and you can't rush quality and that's the only thing I am going to settle for. If she isn't done, then I will still go to the shows and have a good time instead of losing sleep and worrying so much.

I think that's a good plan for now. Plus, I have more important things to think about, like kate, my friends and my family =)

p.s. on an added note, I changed out my first and last heater core this weekend. I would have never thought I would be able to do something that difficult this time last year and I have all of my friends, especially those who have really lent their time guiding me and explaining how things work along the way (Jason, Will, Scott, Wieder, VR etc etc etc) so thank you guys. It really is awesome that I have such a tight group of friends helping me learn all of this crap.

p.p.s. Due to Roxy taking a dump on the side of the road yesterday, I had to call up Jason to trailer me back to his house in a moments notice. How many people can say they have friends who would stop what they were doing to do THAT for them haha Also, thank you to Macaroni who hiked ALL THE WAY from sterling to the sticks, with the flu, to pick kate and I up at Jason's house. You fooking rule man =) XOXO

p.p.p.s. I put some gas money is in the passenger seat pocket *wink*

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